I'm a bitch, I know I am.
I know I won't be kind and nice to everyone.
I know that people hate me because of my attitude, temper and whatever they hate on me about.
I can't say I don't care cause I do care a little but fuck it, as long as, I know why they hate me and they must have a reason to it or else, why the fuck you hate/dislike me?
It's okay if you hate/dislike me because of character, attitude and my on-off temper. It's because I, myself, hate my temper because I get angry easily and flare at people whenever I want to. 
I'm trying to be nice back to people but seriously, some people ain't worth the time to be nice because they won't change and they will continue bitching about me and well....
Screw you and I just don't want to try anymore.
I'm a bitch and that's why i don't really have much friends to really talk to.
Right now, the only friends that I talked to is jessica and freda.
Even with both of them, I don't fully tell them everything.
I don't want to trust anyone, I don't want to love anyone, I don't want to bother anyone and I hope no one bother about me and just let me bottle up everything, till I let it out myself. I hate bothering people and I hate it so much when people call me useless, stupid, worthless and sort of stuff.
I hate it so much that I often tell myself to do my best and not fail anything because I won't let myself do that. 
I don't want to have a degree because I don't think I deserve the best, I don't want my parents to pin their hopes on me because they always think that I'm useless and hopeless in their eyes. I will set my own goals.
1) Graduate from RP.
2) Find a job and work hard.
3) To return my parents back, their money
I got this feeling that I won't be able to see my friends after I graduate because I will be busy finding jobs and working hard.