To be or not to be?

To live or not to live?

I chose to live for my loved ones

Hey! I'm blogging again!

I'm really excited for this month, there are finally movies that are worth my money to watch in the cinema now!

The first movie will be godzilla! OMG I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS MOVIE!

IT WILL BE SO INTERESTING TO WATCH GODZILLA IN A MORE HIGHER DEFINITION MOVIE! 

THe next movie will be xmen, days of the future past.

OMG OMG OMG, I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT! I LOVE ALL OF THE XMEN MOVIES SO

I HOPE THIS MOVIE WILL NOT DISAPPOINT MEEE! 

I'm so so so excited and I can't wait to watch the movies, yaaa~

So recently, I've been having school and I was thinking of what I wanna do after my poly life. Tbh, i really don't know what I want to do after my poly..

I have three choices. 

The first choice that I want, but i don't think I'm able to get it, would be to go further my studies. But, furthering studies is so god damn expensive... You know how people say work and study at the same time but seriously.. It's just so tough.. But, you know, nothing is easy when you are to achieve something.

The second choice that I want, would be to be a teacher. Even though, I'm not so kin of teaching but It will provide me a stable income so i don't know man...

The third choice that I want, would be to just work after i graduate. I'm not so sure what I would want to work but it's okay. I can earn the money and go study after that. 

I mean who knows what the future holds? Currently, I have to work hard for poly. Omg, talking about poly... The core modules that I'm taking now is so 'dry'. Every lesson is just research after research.. I have to look at word after work.. It's just so boring. I prefer calculating and it keeps me more awake and focus so like yeah.

OH, BEFOR I FORGOT! I realised that someone in my class seems to like me? I'm not so sure but he just act so weirdly around me but whatever. Every single person that likes me don't even dare to approach me so i don't wanna give any shit to him anyway. 

My love life is zero, nothing to look forward to. I don't dare to approach any of crushes, well I only like three people in my 19 years, because I don't think I deserve any one of them. I mean like.. just look at me. I'm fat and I'm just full of flaws that I just can't see myself loving someone before I can truly 100% love myself first. Right now, I can say that I love 70% of me because I mean like, I'm kinda cute for a 19 going 20 year old grul. Omg, I'm praising myself. -.- 

And one last thing, I just can't stand it when my underside of my boobs is sweating. It just so uncomfortable. Like just ew ew ew. 

HAHHAHA, MAYBE THIS IS TOO MUCH INFORMATION BUT FUCK IT. IT'S MY BLOG SO SCREW YOU IF YOU FIND THIS GROSS.

Okay, that's all the complains that I have so far.

I will blog again soon, like as if anyone is reading my blog.. Chey

With love,

Meiying