Isn't she just the perfect body that every girl dream to be? 

Her name is Candice swanepoel, she's VS angel. :)

Hello all! 

i blogged again, hehe!

I just felt like blogging again since i got nothing to do now.

Will be going out with the usual tomorrow, i can't wait!

I hope esther can make it, there is this small part of me that wish she will come

but there is this big part of me that somehow thinks that she's not coming

Anyway, I'm so addicted to demi's new song, heart attack!

Her song kept playing in my head especially this particular part of the song,

"But you make me wanna act like a girl, paint my nails and wear perfume.

For you, make me so nervous that i just can't hold your hand."

Somehow, i got girly when i go poly because there are boys all over.

So i started to act like a girl, painted my nails once a while

and wear perfume whenever i go to school and bring one extra perfume

in my bag, weird huh? I don't even do that during secondary time.

So i was thinking about love just now, like usual.

I realized that sometimes, people head over heels really easy huh?

I don't think i do, HAHAHA. 

It seems to let go someone who you love so deeply.

I think it's in the mind.

But anyway, who am i say this man?

I fall in once back in school and i didn't have the chance to talk to her,

i just let her spilled past me easily cause i didn't even put the effort to approach her.

What can i do? 

This time round, i let him walk away cause i see no hope, or so i assume.

I always have assumption to keep me from hurting myself.

Assumptions like, "Oh you are too fat and ugly, why the fuck will he like you?"

always negative stuff about myself to myself so that I will give up easily. 

This is me, i know that this is not good but this is the only way i can think of

to keep myself from getting hurt again. Selfish me right? I know.

How can i let anyone enter my life like this?

This is why I'm afraid that my future is not as bright as i thought it will be.

Drowned to studies and friends that I don't even care to find my love.

I will try to stop strengthening the wall that block my true feeling but till then, 

the wall is still there and it just seems harder for anyone to break it.

Anyway, i have friends so it's fine.

I will face the world with smiles, i can do this. :) 

Okay, that's all.

Byebye people.

With love, 

Meiying. :)