Hello people.
Suddenly, i remember about this year EFL.
I remembered that i wrote i would try to be more positive.
Looks like, i can't do that.
Whenever, i tried to think about the positive things..
Negative comments would just poop out in my head..
Why am like this?
I remember this sentence in this random show that i watched.
" There is no ugly girl, there is only lazy girls."
Look like i am the lazy and ugly girl.
Someone just scold me, tell me stop being so negative.
There are many reason why i am so negative.
The weight, the lack of confidence in my appearance and many more.
What should i do,
I want to cry out but nothing is coming out, look like i am just
so used to those negative thoughts in my head.
I don't think i will not have the confidence to be in a relationship.
I saw couples that are embarrasses by their partner cause of their
weight, looks and other stuff.
It hurts when i saw that.
In my head, i was like," What if i will be like that?"
So afraid,
No idea what to do then.