I am feeling super down this few days...
I feel like no one is there for me.
I don't want to tell anyone cause they don't understand me.
I feel as if the world is just me and only me.
Sometimes, i don't even know myself.
Sometimes, i have no idea what am i doing..
I feel like dying, literally.
Is like i don't like living anymore.
Sometimes, i said stuff that made those short-tempered people angry.
What can i do?
I love them as my friend but i hated it when they say that.
It is like as if they don't treat me like one of their friend by saying that.
Even when i thought that i never did something wrong.
It turned out that they fucking hate me.
I realized that people fucking hate me when i didn't do anything.
Is like whatever i am doing, people will say nasty stuff behind my back.
I will just kept quiet.
I wish i could turn a deaf ear but sometimes, those comments...
I can't do it, it will keep on repeating in my head like what that sec 3 said to me.
I am always saying sorry to people, so useless.
Like whatever i think about it, i felt super useless.
I would rather be alone and forget all those memories.
Being overweight is so disgusting, i am having a love-hate relationship with my body.
I love my body cause my confidence and pride said that I am cool big girl.
The outside world only know how to mock and laugh at my body.
I really don't know what to say..
I wish god can punish them but that will never happen.
I wish that they could have a taste of their own medicine but i know they won't
I could wish a thousand or million things but that will never happen.
I am feeling super discriminated right now.
What am i suppose to do?
Clueless and hopeless...
Okay, i am done expressing my thoughts and feelings.
Finally, i am feeling so much better now since i had typed it out already.
You guys can see this and just say whatever fucked up thing you want to say.
But i warn you, don't ask anything related to this post TO ME
I will just ignore your advices and thoughts and i will ask you to fuck off.