This time, the blog is only for me to see and to know.
Anyway, i really wanna fall in love with a guy again.
Seriously, if i don't like a guy now.
Idk when i'm going to stop liking girl again.
I admit, i still like her but i think i like other one?
What the fuck right?
Like seriously, idk what the hell is wrong with me.
For that reason, i don't wish to go back to school again.
Another reason is because i feel very lonely.
I feel as if i don't belong there.
After the jasmine raffles thing, i feel soo left out from them.
I really don't feel like talking to jessica anymore.
Idk what made me don't feel like talking to jessica but then like ya.
Somehow, it's also been this way for my rest of my current life.
not having a best friend with me, feeling lonely.
How am i going to survive next year?
Getting back my n lvl result on 17 dec.
Going Cambodia in 1 day time...
I really hate my life but there's nothing i can do about it.
I decided what i wan even if i regretted it...
There's nothing i can do because i chose it..
Every time i think about it, i always feel like crying but i control it.
Controlling it is the only way to disciple myself and become stronger.
not letting people to know anything and just keeping it to myself
is very hard but i survived it many times and i will survive it
with the rest of my life.
not letting people know the real side of me..
I'm sick of this but i have to bear with it.
Whatever people say that hurt me so much..
Someone to depend on when i need help...
All those stuff i don't wan to know them.
I wish that this kind will never exist/
Emotions, feeling and etc....